Why Am I Failing Youtube!

Can anyone answer this question for me? If you are a viewer of mine, and by seeing this I assume that you are a person that follows me, or at least knows who I am in order for you to even locate this post. Please answer this, what am I doing wrong? Am I picking the wrong websites to socialize or promote with ? I maybe, however I actually use what would be the norm; Pinterest, Instagram, Blogger, Youtube, Facebook, but I have no success.

          Earlier today I was online reviewing  my numbers and thinking about my most recent attempt to reach out to this community that uses a Co-op approach to dealing with promotion. Instead pay for view or subscription it uses more of an exchange type of environment and works on sessions. You gain sessions by interacting with other poplin the program. Liking, commenting and subscribing, all while viewing each others videos. The more sessions you have on your account the more chances you have to request viewership of your account. You can do it several ways. You can ask for a subscription along with a view, a like along with a view, a comment along with a view or simply just a view.  I was excited to work for them. I participated as much as possibly and graduated quickly from bronze to silver. This allowed me to campaign for my channel now. Sadly the excitement didn't last long. As usual, as soon as I started getting subscription my subscriber count started to toggle. As many as I received they took back. i should be at almost 250 according to all the work I have done on that account. I lost 18 subscribers when I was working with Tashayla, and then another 12 or so when I was doing this program, and then it just stopped. I went in and checked on everything and I had received partial refunds on my campaigns and they were no longer active, not only that I was back down to bronze and they were now taking sessions back. Which is something they do, reducing sessions is what its called. This is why I used all of mine right away. Totally unfair practice and worth complaining about.So I wrote in, but have't heard anything back yet. 

  Totally in awe of this, I just asked myself out loud, why am  I so unsuccessful at this? And I don't know the answer. When I first started out my mission in 2018 I was strong, 4400 on facebook and a growing 97 on youtube. And after only 6 months. I just new my plan was going to work. But no wanted to watch the videos I was posting. Curious I thought. Why add my page if you were not going to be supportive. Eventually I stopped posting so much there and losing access to that facebook and another one that I had aswell, isn't seem so important. More than anything I was just sad about losing my photos. Then I moved to Gainesville Florida and my videos started to change and so did my views.  Could that be it?  I once thought.. but it didn't seem to make sense. i reviewed my videos and it seemed like mine was the onkt view. But forth time that I was in , I thought my videos were pretty good. I kept at it, and after a while  I lost my iPhone, or sold it to the Eco atm, hey I was broke! The screen was damaged, it was time for an upgrade and I couldn't even pay my bill. They gave me like 60$ for that thing, I remember. It was an iPhone 8plus. And I had ruined it. So I paid a little on the bill and moved on to a cheep t-mobile food stamp phone and a no service galaxy device that I had found on the street side... I know, I know, but don't frown at me. In my own defense I actually did try and find the owner by texting numbers in the phone, but I didn't get a response from the owner. And there was no number marked "home" in the contact list.  So I chalked it up to a job done, and moved on.  Either way, that was my setup for the next year, those two devices and an internet connection. That coupled with a bunch of bad hair days and skin issues. Which made editing fun and yet a bit of a struggle I often wanted to quit, but I had started and somehow couldn't bring myself to stop.

       Youtube has always been a big deal to me. I thought that I would be loved an accepted as soon as I started. I did a blog as you can see, it's in the header. I tried all types of different projects. Taking short trips, gardening, shopping, family days. Just me, a girl and her camera. With plenty of time on her hands, and a light personality, good  enough to put a smile on your face at least. Well, I  would think. Unfortunately that's not what everyone else saw. I actually received a lot of hate in the first few years. My channel views have all but completely stopped several times, and I can never figure out why the change happens it just does. In 2022, I made the biggest mistake I think that I could ever make as a YouTube. I signed up for Sean Cannals' "Grow With Video" course. WORST THING I EVER DID!  It changed everything. He ruins the way you get views some kind of way with that program. After him I wasn't getting anything. And the people in the course were creepy and stalker like, not to mention two faced. Eww, I just remember being so turned off by that experience. And my channel has never been the same every sense. I tried VIDiQ, and guess what! They are Sean Cannal as well. I just don't get it, Every one says that the program works but  I have not had success with it ever. I even tried the program that Peach does and I dint get it, so I took it as advice and moved on. In her defense though it wa the prerecorded version that she sold on tik-tok for 10$, and I took it while on vacation so maybe, I just wasn't into it, i don't know.    

        Now here we are in the year 2025, I've tried vidiq again, this time I didn't pay 100$ it takes to realize they are full of crap though. I used the free version to be apart of a group a tiktocker named Tashayla created. And yeah she stole the subscribers back..bad luck...Bad luck ..BAD LUCK!  I tried google promote and I fill like they over charged me but I did get views, it's just you don't get subscribers or comments with that program. They aren't that good either way, and then your views will all but stop after because they share they are the only reason your getting them. Blehhh!!  I do owe them $5.00 thou ... I should probably pay them. I guess it would have been easier for me to try  if that extra 5 cents wasn't on there. OH well...another day for that one.

    I really need to get on top of this.  I don't want to be stubborn, but there has to be a way I can change this to normal. Any ideas? As for right now I am stomped. This is so frustrating. I have complained to everyone I can about their bad practices, and they have complained about mine. However this is just my first infraction, they have had many. I'm always disappointed in google promote. This time, instead paying them for not working, I simply took a pause on that campaign to take  some time and think about whether it was worth pursuing. It wasn't.  They were running the tab over the requested amount and not really giving me anything for my money. I started to close it out at 1.98 when I found out they were trying to use bloggers who don't like you to promote your account. That does not work!  And for 5.00 you get less than 200 views, that sucks. That in fact is how I found out about the new program I'm using. They of course started in with the subscriber stealing right away. I think that was vid iq, but it could have been google, I  don't know. But I hate them. I seriously think that they are the reason the other program closed me out before finishing my campaign. I even took back permissions from everyone who had access to my account and I'm still having issues. Uhhh! I thought promotion was about getting your name out there and known so that people can choose to watch you later,but no it's just a cheep check for an already existing YouTuber.

        Somebody please tell me what to do about this problem. Does youtube suck? Or is it just me ?

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(tell me, what do you think of the way things are going? I think this vlog was little sad. all that work and then no real progress.)